作词 : JoZ
作曲 : JoZ
I’m too tired living with them demons
我已经无法再同恶魔一起生活了
But lately I see they’ve been reaching
他们已经离我越来越近了
I’m lost again feeling like I’m at the deep end
我再一次迷失自我，逐渐走向深渊
I’m lost again the voice in my head it deepens
我再一次迷失自我，脑海中的声音在不停变大
I done wasted so much time I need to refrain
我浪费了太多的时间，我需要停下来
Been losing everything I want to retain
失去了我最想留下的所有事物
I’m lost again feeling like I’m at the deep end
我再一次迷失自我，逐渐走向深渊
I’m lost again the voice in my head it deepens
我再一次迷失自我，脑海中的声音在不停变大


See this is what you get when I speak solely for myself
让我来告诉你我是怎么想的
Why would you care so much about me or what I felt
你根本不在意我，更不在意在意我的想法
I didn’t see you there when I truly need help
当我需要你的时候你根本不在我的身边
Flashback I almost ended my life in that hotel
现在回头我差点就在那个酒店结束了一切
Wasn’t the first time I ever thought of doing this thing
我不是第一次有这种想法了
Wasn’t the first night you should know I’ve been losing it
也不是第一个失控的夜晚了
The only light I see was from the spark of my Bic
我唯一能看到的光来自于打火机
I was scared of tomorrow I’mma do it real quick
我不敢去想明天，只想赶紧结束一切
Now try to picture a boy, he’s bout 12 year old
现在去想象一下，一个12岁的男孩
School ended early, he decided to go home
提前放学回家
His worst nightmare was lurking right behind that door
他最可怕的梦魇就藏在门后
Opened up see his mama laying on the floor
当他开了门，看到他的母亲倒在地上
I remember neighbors showed up
他还记得邻居赶来帮忙
I was chocked up
他仿佛窒息了一般
Bunch of paramedics carried her onto the white truck
看着医护人员把母亲抬上了救护车
I can understand you only trust what you see
我知道眼见为实
So here goes my whole story that you’ll never believe
所以当这就是个你们永远不会相信的故事


I’m too tired living with them demons
我已经无法再同恶魔一起生活了
But lately I see they’ve been reaching
他们已经离我越来越近了
I’m lost again feeling like I’m at the deep end
我再一次迷失自我，逐渐走向深渊
I’m lost again the voice in my head it deepens
我再一次迷失自我，脑海中的声音在不停变大
I done wasted so much time I need to refrain
我浪费了太多的时间，我需要停下来
Been losing everything I want to retain
失去了我最想留下的所有事物
I’m lost again feeling like I’m at the deep end
我再一次迷失自我，逐渐走向深渊
I’m lost again the voice in my head it deepens
我再一次迷失自我，脑海中的声音在不停变大


I’m being thankful that lord didn’t take her away
我很感激神没有带走她
I’m being thankful cuz now I will see better days
我很感激因为我知道从现在开始日子只会变好
I’m being thankful I learned love before I hate
我很感激我在恨之前先学会了去爱
God put me thru all the struggles just so I can be great
神应该是通过这一切去锤炼我的意志
I can only imagine that this life is a race
人生就像是一场比赛
Racing to the finish line, go down in a grave
终点等着的不过是一部棺材
Don’t brag about tomorrow let me finish today
我不想听你的志向，我只想过好今天
Don’t be waking up a new beast inside the same cage
不要在同一个地方唤醒内心的猛兽
My mama caught me
我妈妈看到我
Sitting on the edge of the window
坐在窗台的边缘
She could hear the wind blow
她听得到外面的风声
Her heart start to tremble
她的心开始颤抖
I had to watch her suffer
我看着痛苦中的她
And I just suffocate more
更加喘不过气
My world has been so dark
我的世界太过于黑暗了
My stars they don’t sparkle
连星星都不发光
I lost the smile on my face
我失去了脸上的笑容
I was too deep in sorrow
在悲痛中难以自拔
I had to pick up my fate
但我需要正视我的命运
I’m not sure when to come home
我不知道什么时候才能回家
Now when I’m lost on my way
现在当我再次迷失自我的时候
And things start to go wrong
当所有事情都变坏的时候
Just know I’ve been in that place
我知道我已经历过这些了
I was in there for too long
我在那里待了太久了